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I am so sorry.Could you just forget me? I actually want you to this time.
I must be bipolar or have a disorder that makes me this stupid and immature.
All I do is stuff full of nonsense and I want to die.
I push things too far.
I make my friends angry.
I never mean to but it happens.
Then I cry myself to sleep.
I know how much I mess up.
I know that I am being disrespectful.
Or I'm proud for no reason.
I know you think I'm seeking attention even though you don't tell me so.
I am just being me.
Someone who can't do anything right.
I can't breath right, talk right, walk right, think right, act right, do right.
And that's the whole reason why I hate myself.
You tell me other people would be sad if I died it possibly kill themselves too.
Truth is, none of you have the guts or care enough cause all I ever do is get angry at you or make you mad or cry or disappointed..
All I do...
All I do is
Should I really trust him?Some people say I'm ugly. others say I'm cute.
some say I'm perfect. some won't tell the truth.
Then when I confront them, they tell me they don't lie,
they say that I should trust them, to that I ask them why...
They say not to listen, to their stupid lies
The hug me and they sooth me, and make me feel alright
He says not to listen, and let their words get to my head
But then I calmly told him, if that's true, then why should I trust him?
.~*The Light Within*~. Project for school... A dark shadow cast over a village in a small land. A girl stood outside the gates, staring at the riot inside with her soft green eyes.
"Why do they blame me?" hot tears began to stream down her face, "This isn't something I've done!" She turned to her only friend, A beautiful black pelted wolf dragon with a fiery blue main and patterns.
Her eyes, unseen, were replaced with black markings, yet still possessed sadness and pity that burned for the girl and the monstrosity inside the village.
The demonic creature spoke gently through mind with a dry, yet soothingly pleasant voice, "Darling, they know no better than to accuse the being they place as 'odd' among them,"
"But Neschume!" the girl stood crying, sorrowfully staring at Neschume, keeping a soft and emotionless face. "These people are all I have left that is human!" she hid her face in the fur jacket sleeves.
"Echo, you have the company of the wise and well-being the forest wolves provide you," S
''Just in-case I'' Suicide letterJust in case I grab a knife and shove it through my heart....
I love you so much that I get so confused when I try to think about how much I love you. You KNOW I want a future with you, and it's always possible, but there's a chance it wont happen. I never wanted to lose you this way. I hope you realize I never meant to be a jerk to you I never meant anything negative in our relation ship, and especially towards you. I do not joke; I LOVE YOU. Stop blaming yourself for shit. Sure you were the one who wanted to do stuff but I'm the one who didn't try to stop you. If I cared enough I would've. And if I end. Don't you dare blame yourself. DON'T YOU DARE end yourself either. You need to look after Sam. Poor boy needs help with his soul. You were born a medic. You mended my heart, help him mend his.
I love you.
I love you bro. You're so special Imma never forget ya. I hope you realize you have more than me and you just don't understand it. You kn
ICIWICIWI would, if I could,
but I can't.
So I won't.
And if I won't, then I cant,
But I could.
If I would.
This world is confusing.
Scattered like stars,
in the sky,
A wave of confusion,
on our towns.
What's left is just trash.
of some sort.
But it lets us begin again
a new heart.
Let it all die
for time's never ending.
If I tried
but I'm weakened by words.
But I can't,
build it again
even with strengthened soul.
So I won't,
Let. Me. Grow. Old.
One Step CloserTake a breath,
One step closer
Say a word,
one step closer
another step closer..
more steps closer
so much closer
Try to hold on
too much closer
Slow your breathing,
two more steps
Say your last words,
Let go, it's useless
You're already there.
It's Okay to be ImperfectThe moon
Stand Against SuicideI know the pain is perhaps unbearable,
But darling, please put down the blade.
Release your emotions through tears and smiles,
Rather than dreading these days.
Do it for the little girl, whose mother can’t be there,
Or for the boy whose father drank too much.
For the boy who can’t sit in elementary school,
Because the bruises from Daddy hurt to touch.
For the teenage girl lying face down in her bed,
Thinking, why can’t it all be done?
For the elderly man looking up at the stars,
Counting the days one by one.
Do it for the children who wonder, does it end?
For the ones who feel left on their own.
For the ones who think, maybe it wouldn’t be so hard
If I didn’t feel so left alone.
And finally, do it for one other person,
The person in front of these words.
Because you’ll never know how it gets better
When focusing on pain and hurt.
Live one more day, dear, for them and for you,
And I swear to you, problems will fade.
I know, for right now, it’s p
Unable to loveMy love was pure
I only wanted
But my heart
Because my love
Like a piece of garbage
And now I'm unable
Because the shreds
Of my shattered soul
I Thought I Needed FeminismI thought I needed feminism, when I was a little girl.
And I am very sad to admit, that this wasn't very long ago.
I thought when he held the door open for me, that he was making a big mistake.
That he was being a pompous ass, and he took my strength for a fake.
And when he offered to pay my tab, I still called him an ass.
Because I thought he assumed I was poor, and below middle class.
Or when his hard work earned him a promotion,
yet I did nothing, and the boss' ignorance to promote me, I believed was a sexist notion.
My friend really wanted feminism when she found her ex-dead drunk,
removed his clothes, and without his consent, had a pleasurable fuck.
When her parents bust into the room unexpected that night,
she said he raped her, and he was arrested without so much as a fight.
Perhaps feminism was there when I walked out into the street in pure nudity,
and shouted the my neighbors “You have no right to judge me!”
I didn't care about the children who were standing in th
MathematicsI am but the sum of my
F L A W S;
a network of
S C A R S
a disaster of
D R E A M S
a shield of
B O N E S
C A L C U L A T I O N
a void of
to the girl i lose my words aroundi have been meaning to tell you for years:
i think you’re beautiful. i have
seen nothing on earth that holds a candle
to the ocean you carry inside your body.
it spills over your edges sometimes, like
a rain shower around you, blurring your penciled-in
lines until there is nothing left of you but your natural
cliffs, valleys, and deserts.
i like that.
i have never met someone who is, somehow,
a sea and a storm at the same time.
maybe i never will again.
maybe you are the only one
who gathers clouds on her forehead
like a promise, or feels the push and pull of the tide
with her every step.
you are beautiful, honestly.
you are honest, beautifully.
it is in the way you talk, the way you hold ice
on your tongue but forget to use it—
you always forget to use it, i don’t think
you know how.
to be truthful, i’m afraid of your smile
and how it breaks over me, how it pulls
me like a whirlpool down, how it pushes me
like a current back to the surface. i’m afraid of
DifferentDifferent on the outside,
Different mask you see daily,
Different girl you call ‘Hailey’
To my surprise
Your ears are distracted,
So I tell lies, looking into your eyes,
“Yea I’m fine. Simply tired”
For that response my brain is wired.
Different mouth you hear speaking,
Different voice you hear screaming
Different eyes you see pleading,
Different person you’d befriended
I’m sorry this is how it’s ended.
Mist, Snowflakes, Water, and back again.Waiting in a confusing atmosphere
singing a silent song of fate
glancing at the crystal glaciers
of this gigantic, icy cold, place.
Fading into clouds of mist
that hide the secret that is hidden
Floating up into the sky
only to find myself as snowflakes - broken
Finding all the scattered pieces
isn't the hardest part of all,
putting it all back together
is where I actually begin to fall
Once together I only break
this fragile surface is cracked at once
Then finally as midday comes
the pieces become melted by the sun
Woven together in partials of water
I smile over the density of pain
This beautiful feeling only lasts a while
as the ice and fog grow thick again.
Hidden in a cloud of mist
Broken into many snowflakes
Falling as I put myself together
then melted to water
where heat forms me to mist
This, is my never ending cycle.
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