''Just in-case I'' Suicide letterJust in case I grab a knife and shove it through my heart....
I love you so much that I get so confused when I try to think about how much I love you. You KNOW I want a future with you, and it's always possible, but there's a chance it wont happen. I never wanted to lose you this way. I hope you realize I never meant to be a jerk to you I never meant anything negative in our relation ship, and especially towards you. I do not joke; I LOVE YOU. Stop blaming yourself for shit. Sure you were the one who wanted to do stuff but I'm the one who didn't try to stop you. If I cared enough I would've. And if I end. Don't you dare blame yourself. DON'T YOU DARE end yourself either. You need to look after Sam. Poor boy needs help with his soul. You were born a medic. You mended my heart, help him mend his.
I love you.
I love you bro. You're so special Imma never forget ya. I hope you realize you have more than me and you just don't understand it. You kn